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I’m liking the word “we” much better than “me”

Rather than “mine” ?  I like “ours” instead

And it’s all coming back to me now

Though for too long hope seemed to be dead

 

A mind has a hard time considering 

The “us” that’s been for so long

Sometimes not even remembering

Our once shared and much loved song

 

So busy searching for strength to endure 

Can make life a one man show

Just fighting to survive 

This ominous threat of unknown

 

It’s like we’ve been stuck on pause

Where we couldn’t see here nor abroad 

But now were breaking free

Just what I requested from God

 

No longer feeling threatened

Nor hushed and made to feel dumb

We’re breaking the bonds of force and control

From under a relentless thumb

 

Rising above crazy makers and fear-mongers

Nay-sayers and those who are mean…

Cuz fear doesn’t come from God

But it does crush our God given dreams!

 

So it’s “we” who go forward from this day

It’s “ours” who’s dreams are revived

Together to make a difference in this world

To be the change-  lived out through our lives!

 

Eloyce  Aug 10, 2009

I use to not let people mess with my wall

Erected for my safty

A massive one of imposing hight

I know this may sound sort of crazy

 

Sometimes- I’d let someone step just inside

If they’d only talk about weather

Yet- venture past my safety zone

I’d avoid ‘em from then on-  forever!

 

I’d scoot them out turn my head

And leave ‘em wondering wherein

Blocking them out by acting aloof 

So uncomfortable in my own skin

 

I’ve change a bit- my wall’s sitting height

All part of what God’s been doing…

Yet sometimes I feel all exposed inside

All transparent… like everyone’s looking

 

I ask… How can I help others like me

If I don’t share what God has done?

Other’s who hide who they really are

Who find them selves too- on the run

 

What is it that I’m afraid of…

The me- who’s getting in touch?

No masquerade- Just the real thing

God’s child- whom He loves so much!

 

Eloyce  January 17, 2009

Lets sing love live and dance

Upon this wide world

While we’ve got the chance…

 

Words deeply etched inside my heart

Yet oddly a state of mind

Strangely entangled they often meet up

In murmurous of perilous times

 

Most blessings from our loving God

Get dirtied and abused

In this earthly place we live

More often- they’re miss used

 

Let’s sing love live and dance

Upon this wide world

While we’ve got the chance…

 

Words known to be essential

For God’s abundant life to live 

It’s far too dangerous to sort it all out

For safety we burry our heads

 

What makes a counterfeit?

How do we know- true or false?

Which meanings bring praise to our loving God

To shine forth from our hearts?

 

Let’s sing love live and dance

Upon this wide world

While we’ve  got the chance…

 

Eloyce 2/27/09

Thanks to a wise person on Face Book, I’ve finally found my favorite quote, and here it is… “Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”  Dr. Seuss.  

Coming from a Adventist cultural heritage of only nonfictional reading, I find it no wonder I was not allowed to read books like “The Cat in the Hat”…  so silly and frivolous; everyone knows animals don’t talk, eggs aren’t green… and ham? Well, we wont go there…

Here is another one… “It’s better to remain silent and be thought a fool- than to speak up and remove all doubt.”  I grew up with this phrase as the basis of my dubious love/hate roller-coaster of confidence and self doubt.  And now as an adult trying to figure out my complex self, I’ve discovered that it was Aberham Lincoln who originally said these words! Wow, this was a little shocking to me, I had to think this one through…  

I’m confident that old Abe didn’t mean this quippy phraise to be used to shut people up and stifle creative thought.   I give everyone the benefit of the doubt; so perhaps he came up with it out of his own insecurities and inability to communicate what he was thinking at a given time… I know that’s how I am;  I’m by no means stupid nor oblivious to the concerns of those around me; I just sometimes have a hard time accessing my brain at the appropriate times. 

Quips are odd and unplanned, yet useally precise and to the point.  Sometimes they flow out of me as if I were always in total control of the situation; at other times I waste a perfectly good opportunity with only a blank stare…  

One winter while strolling through a clothing store, I had a colorful green and blue stripe scarf jump off the rack and into my cart.  I couldn’t figure out why I liked it so much, but I had to buy it!  Later my sister complimented me on my “Dr. Seuss scarf”…  Yes!  That’s what it was-  bold, silly and frivolous, free from all doubt… I still love to wear it… It makes me feel good and smile inside.

Eloyce