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Me
At times I have so much to say
Seems quite emanate that I do so
For if I should wait for a listening ear
No doubt by then there would be no
There’s times my mind is flowing
Like for instance… in the shower
There seems no way to capture these thoughts
Till now with a new gift-however
An underwater scuba board
Given me by my sweet husband Eddy
I can write these words while in water I bask
Then retrieve them when I’m later ready
But the opposite is true when I’m put on the spot
Now nothing in my head to draw from
A blank comes up- though I know it’s not true
All is forgotten- I’m left feeling quite rotten
Yet if I can think in story form
When all thoughts it seems I‘m lacking
Words return with little such effort
My tong released with out asking
What is this strange thing I suffer from?
Are there others in this world besides me?
Understanding I’ve sought for most of my life
To this question- the answer I seek
Eloyce M Witzel
3/7/08
Stuck
Force doesn’t do a thing for me
I only know things when my mind is flowing
If I follow this rule words pop in my head
Thought patterns without even knowing
When up against any deadline
Panic comes easy to me
It’s then it seems rational thought is all gone
And I hurt the ones dearest to me
I can’t name music notes correctly
And loose my place all the time
Yet ask me to sing any harmony
Who needs notes words or lines?
I’ve begged God for more wisdom
Often thinking this request He’ll fulfill
Yet to be smart like everyone else is
Seems never his ultimate will
Maybe He has given me wisdom
Gained through hard circumstances
Reaching out- taking hold of a hand
And learning to ask the hard questions
Words are flowing out of me now
Where before it seemed all was stuck
Deep down inside where they couldn’t come out
This reveling? Much more than just luck!
Eloyce M Witzel
4/2/08
Unapproved
Early expectations sought to fulfill
Just haven’t worked out for me
I’m not like all the others around
I drum to a much different beat
A phrase that’s always gone against my grain is
“Study to show thyself approved”
Coming from a family of scholars
Shirley expected- moreover behooved
I’ve never been able to glean much from study
Be it the bible or simple times tables
Cause soon after I put it into my brain
To retrieve it I am quite unable
Yet ask me to recall a story
Whether in words or put to a song
Words flow easily from my lips
It seems here that nothing is wrong
It’s been said I’ve never applied myself
With this standard to which I’m subjected
Trying their way to learn gets me nowhere
I’m “unapproved” and feeling rejected
It’s from experience my knowledge is gained
It’s the process of which I partake
It’s also helpful to watch others
And learn from their painful mistakes
Life lessons of the heart
I may never learn in a school
Nor a seminar on what’s deemed proper
Useless for me as a rule
My grandpa always said
He graduated the college of hard knocks
With great stories of his alma-mater
A college that certainly rocks!
Eloyce M Witzel
4/1/08
Different
No one wants to admit there’s a problem
We hide in the shame of being different
No one wants to talk about stuff
Let’s a pretend a problem there isn’t
If we ignore it maybe I’ll go away
Won’t have to deal with this uncertain fear
If that doesn’t work then we’ll pray
God is sure to answer our prayer
Does anyone wonder what’s going on?
Were there others affected before?
Is there a name for this way of being?
We can ignore this problem no more
God uses process and development
Of working through stuff to an outcome
By seeking education & understanding
I can help others trapped- into freedom
Eloyce M Witzel
4/3/08
